Happy Solstice!
December 22, 2009, 6:28 am
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Dinner by candle light.

Ecstatic that she got what she asked for for weeks!

The birth of light is here!  Many Bright Blessings to you all on this wonderful Winter Solstice.


Tiny, ugly germs..
December 13, 2009, 3:22 pm
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So, for the past three weeks M and I have been sick.  Really sick.  Last night I was awoken to her projectile vomiting all over my bed, all over me and all over the floor on the way to the bathroom.  YUCK.  She had a Mango Lassi earlier in the evening and let me just say it is not a good smell coming up.  Ugh.  I was terrified to let her sleep back in my bed because we were washing the mattress cover (and if she vomited on my bare bed I have no money to buy a new mattress).  But finally I went to sleep.  Now I wake up and in addition to the congestion, cough that kills me, my time of the month AND antibiotics I have an upset tummy.  It’s really shaky and I feel like utter crap.

M is running around like nothing happened though.  A little warm, but not as hot as she was last night.  Omg, she was burning last night.  I actually gave her tylenol (which I hardly ever do) because she was so hot and complaining of a headache.

I almost feel like I need to throw up to get it out of my system.  But I HATE throwing up.  I need to go to the store and get something for dinner tonight as it’s my brothers last day here (he returns back home.  He came to visit for the Holidays and we are doing an early dinner with him and exchanging some gifts.) and I just don’t feel like it.

I wish I had something more productive and interesting to write.  Later on I will update with pictures from the doll I am making.

08 December 2009
December 9, 2009, 4:12 am
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Ohh, Ikea I love you.  I love how monster sized your stores are, but once you get inside it doesn’t feel any bigger than say a grocery store?  Maybe not even that.  I do not like stores that you walk in and they feel like an enclosed football field.    Makes me nervous.  This one didn’t.  It had a lowish ceiling, smaller rooms and it was quiet.  Not tons of noise.  I hate shopping with music blaring, people screaming and just the general noise.  Can’t concentrate.  Anyways, my Ikea love.

So I found about 4 couches I want, about 4 slip covers for my own couch, and tons and tons of kid stuff for Madeleine.  We found a lovely shelving unit (it is actually a tv stand, but she wouldn’t know that and it was half off at $60 bucks!) so we need to go back because it was way to big to get in my brothers rental car.  Sucks, I hope we can’t get it.  It’s a pretty long drive to get up there.  I don’t have a car either.

I bought M some cute little metal pots for her kitchen and this little china tea set.  Mum got her a duvet set and some play utensils and the plate set.  I want to live in Ikea.  Ooooo, and I got Marzipan tarts!

06 December 2009
December 7, 2009, 2:34 am
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I rescued him from my work.  My co worker rescued the other one a few weeks ago and the other day he comes in and tells me I am taking a fish home.  A while ago there was a party at work and they used these fish as center pieces.  Nice to just take an animal and use it to make your table look pretty.  Anyone want to cage a gorilla because it looks nice and stick it on the table?  Strange.  Well, I took a look at the poor thing and the water stunk so bad, it was really cloudy and he was floating at the bottom.  So I agreed to take him home.  I got my vase out, cleaned it and put some nice warm clean water in there.  Conditioned the water, and put him in.  After a day and some nice pellets he has perked right back up.  He is swimming around and is pretty vivacious when eating.  Although he does have a nice case of fin rot.  I have to go to the pet store and buy some medicine for him.  We have no names decided yet.  Our last Betta (who promptly died the next day after acquiring him because the woman at the store didn’t put the conditioner in the water like she said she did) was named Basquiat after the famous artist.  I need another good name.  He is a pretty boy.  Also, I think he needs some gravel at the bottom of his bowl, actually he needs a bigger bowl, but I think he is okay for right now.

M’s doll is really stalling.  I am not happy with how it is turning out in the least bit.  It looks lumpy, and the neck is not sitting right.  The company I ordered the kit from, well I will not be ordering from them again.  I do not like the head and body in one piece.  And I can’t afford to buy another kit.  The wig is just seriously annoying me.  I don’t have enough of the wool to make a cap and a wig because the boucle is a beast to work with.  I ruined about a quarter of the ball trying to crochet the cap.  So now I am going to just use some other kind of wool from my stash.  I just want her done.  I am really starting to not want to finish this because it just isn’t turning out how I want and I have this huge big fear that my daughter will not like it.  I am sure she will, but it just looks like crap to me.  Maybe I will get around to posting a picture of her.

And personally, this week of this month is especially difficult for me.  Last year at this time I would have been bringing a little one into the world, but it wasn’t meant to be.  I understand that and accept it.  But sometimes, when everything stop my mind wonders and something gets caught in my throat.   It’s very hard to talk about with people (especially family, because they have forgotten about him and I haven’t) but sometimes I wish someone would remember him other than me.

03 December 2009
December 4, 2009, 4:23 am
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Always helping she is.  Never fear when she is around, there will always be extra hands to help.

We put up our Yule decorations, both outside and inside.  My mother came over, and like she does at everything I do, turned her nose up at them.  My outside decorations where not “enough” for her.  I just did my porch because both the sproglette and I have been sick.  Husband wasn’t a help with the lights and I was not about to get on the roof myself and put them up.  I know that she would have and she would have come over to help me, but it’s my house, my family.  Let me do it how I feel is right.  I think my porch looks cute.  I don’t want to run long green extension cords all over my yard so that my car can drive over them and possibly hurt the car or the cable.

I love my mother, I really do and she does a lot for me, but nothing I do is EVER good enough for her.  My house isn’t clean enough, my kid isn’t learning enough stuff from me, I am not skinny enough.  Oh the list goes on and on.  I try not to let it bother me.  Haha.

Anyways, back to the holidays.  M’s doll is still in a state of limblessness.  Hahahhaa, whatever that means.  I still have to put her arms on and do her hair.  I will do that later.  I need to work myself up to her hair.  I have wasted a bit of the yarn on it and I don’t want to waste anymore.  So right now I am knitting her a dress out of kool aid dyed malabrigo worsted.   Yeah, the doll gets malabrigo.  I have a cardigan knitted, this dress and a cape.  I need to do some pants, some socks and a hat.  Possibly a coat.  I better get cracking.